the fiDZ files

late night philosophies

2006-11-22T05:37:00.000-08:00

If there is such a thing as a healthy fat man.. i am "him" Im fat but i can run 3 kilometres without any problems.

Early morning philosophy.

2006-10-30T15:02:00.000-08:00

You know when u love someone so much, u tend to hold on so tightly and u never wish to let go. And it really hurt so much when that person is insensitive to your feelings knowing that you are a patient and understanding person. A patient and understanding person has feelings too. We are still only humans.

ramadhan magic

2006-10-24T16:15:00.000-07:00

Its Hari raya again and muslims all around the world celebrate this day as a mark of victory after the fasting month of ramadhan. Im not going to talk about the whole hari raya thing as most of you already know what its all about. I just want to share with you my experience during ramadhan. I feel that this is the most meaningful ramadhan for me. Oh well i havent been the best of muslims before.. but this year, there was something different. It was a feeling of wanting to commit myself to perform this fasting month with much dedication and sincerity possible. I felt peace and contention after every solat, and i did not miss a single solat because i kept wanting to perform it. After every prayer time, there is something about me that cannot wait till the next prayers. THat is to ME a strange phenomenon. I never felt like this before. I became more generous in helping people and making other people feel good. I am more patient and i appreciate life as it is. Another thing is that this year my grandfather fell ill. I is prety sad to see him in that state. Most of my family spend the buka puasa at hospital. As my grandpa is in hospital i moved to my grandma's place. All and all it is a good and i can say a life changing ramadhan. And i can say that i am a different man now after this year's ramadhan. SELAMAT HARI RAYA

you tube

2006-09-22T16:08:00.000-07:00

i was surfing youtube i found this interesting video. i would like to share it.

just search "Damir Niksic"

Back to school

2006-09-17T15:52:00.000-07:00

Next on the agenda of updates is about me going back to school. I got into unsim doing a bachelor course in biomedical engineering. People always ask me what i will be doing after i graduate with that degree. Well truth is that the things i can do is very vast. I could be an engineer specializing on a Xray machine or i could be in the lab mixing some chemicals. So i do not have an idea yet what to specialize in. For the first semester, i am doing a course in biochemistry. It is not that new to me since i did biology in secondary school. But the level of the course is ten times higher. I had my first panic before i hand in my first assignment. It is probably due to my reservist which is the week right before the due date. So i didnt had much done. but i passed nonetherless, barely. So right now i am already working on my 2nd assignment plus i have a lab report to hand in. So my head is ready to explode with work during the day and the struggle to bring myself to study at night. I really hope i can finish this degree. It will be sad if i dont but then again, money is also a factor. I have to save to pay the school fees per semester and then i have my marriage in 2008. this 2 to 4 years in my life is going to be hard and hectic. Lets just hope i will survive.

engagement pics

2006-09-16T17:44:00.000-07:00

here are some pics from my engagement.

THE RING!

The gifts from me.

Gifts from her.

My mum putting on the ring for my fiancee. Happy happy day!

engaged

2006-09-15T19:46:00.000-07:00

now to update this space on the recent happenings in my life. On the 8th of july 2006, nani and me got engaged. We did the conventional singaporean malay engagement routine. We exchanged gifts. The ring from me being the (tanda) "mark" of the engagement. The rest of the gifts were just acessories to the ring. I got for her a DKNY watch, a facial set from H2O, a malay traditional dress (baju kurung)and a praying mat. All other food items courtesy from aunties. Thank you very much ladies. On her side, she got me a DKNY watch, hugo shirt, praying mat and songkok , and a pair of macbeth shoes. Plus food items from her relatives. The whole event will consist of my family and a representative going to her house with all the gifts and present them to her representative. And they will have some formal talks regarding the lenghts of the engagement bla bla bla. So nothing much right? just talking and exchanging of gifts. So how does this engagement change things? That was what i thought. and i was wrong......Almost instantly, things changed. my feelings for her grew tremendously. I dont know what made this change. As if there is this explosion and i love and care about her even more. it grew and grew and grew. And now im always looking forward to the day when we will get married spending our lifetime together. so this is interesting for me. a good experience. So to tunang is not a waste of money like most people told me before. It really will strenghten your relationship; not in a way that u are more obliged to be commited, but it is automatic. well this may be a case to case basis. So maybe other engagements have different outcomes. I hope they turn out to be as lovely as mine!

guess whose back?

2006-09-14T10:18:00.000-07:00

guess what? im back..reason this blog was inactive is because the band split. YES there is no more Fruitcake. If u ask me why? I guess we got tired of it. Music in this country won't do you any good nor will it bring you any money. hehe. I know people always say they do it because of the passion... blah blah..not becoz of the money...yah rrriiitee... wont it be nice just to have money for your performance once in awhile. haha. so this blog is going to be a one man blog from now on.. its about me! yes me! anyway i have lots of things to update. lots of things happening. Since this is only the warm up, a few things to highlight.

- IM ENGAGED!!!!! to NANI of course my beloved.
- I am finally doing my bachelor at UniSIM.
- I became a gym junkie because of the 2 "beruangs" at my workplace
- One of my best friend got married
- The other best friend always having problems with relationship

All that to be elaborated in future posts. Watch out for this space.

We were saviours

2006-01-21T07:09:00.000-08:00

Something interesting happend today when me, Nani and Yunos was in town. We saw a man collapse and when into fits. He must have hit his head on the ground hard because it was bleeding. After a 2 second hesitation (we were quite shocked really), I went over and i kinda grab this piece of tissue paper on the ledge and i applied pressure on the wound to arrest the bleeding. Yunos tried to talk to the man after calling for an ambulance but he obviosly couldnt respond. Nani managed to tell the curious people crowding that he needed air and she got a newspaper from the "ahpek" at the newstand to fan the guy and at the same time check for his pulse. she claimed that she cant feel any. But i could feel his pulse on his neck. I did a pain test on him but he didnt respond to the pain inflicted and i inform Nani. We were afraid because when someone didnt respond to pain...its bad.. She attempted a sternum rub and the guy responded. We heaved a sigh of relief. After a few minutes, the shaking stopped and he came into. He was blurry and confused. but we managed to explain to him what had happend. We stayed and talked to him till the ambulance came. Didnt want him to lose counsiousness. Nani did some checks. Finally the paramedics arrived and we left him to the professionals.

Thanks to the people who helped with the mineral water and tissue papers. And the bystanders who watched.

The innocent can never last.

2006-01-20T20:57:00.000-08:00

"SUMMER HAS COME TO PAST. THE INNOCENT CAN NEVER LAST"

I have read books, listened to songs and watched movies. Honest people telling honest stories, honest accounts and a very disturbing reality. Since early times, humans have been disagreeing and killing each other. But most of the time it is the innocent who often got killed. It was always the innocent killing the innocent. A father killing someone else's son or a boy killing somone else's father. And they do it because it is their job and their employers pay them to do their business. These employers are actually running a business and they have soldiers as employees.
They even have their own secret police to carry on assisination. They have the power to kill people without being arrested. People who do not agree with them and people who wants to go against them will be wiped out. What can the people do? Vote? Whats the point of voting when in the end the employers got the power to manipulate them. And all these mindless killing are going on because employers do not agree with each other. They even have their own storytellers called the media. All these frustrations can only be expressed through books, songs and movies but what difference did all these expressions and outcries did? nothing really. We are all here to listen and do what the employers tell us. We cant afford to disagree. In the end they are the one with the money and money can "BUY" lots of things and make people do even more things. And they fund their business from the tax the innocents pay them everyday. And they can never run out of $. Infact it is because of money that employers dont agree and "INNOCENTS CAN NEVER LAST."

"This is a only a fictional entry . any characters similar dead or alive is purely coincidental"

Feb 11

2006-01-14T22:26:00.000-08:00

BE THERE PEOPLE!!

0this is proof that we rocked before simple plan. haha

2005-12-07T04:41:00.001-08:00

Guess what i found... these will be considered retro...

Not to forget our friends from Harakiri.

"and the bond we use to have, rusted away....rusted away....!"

11th DEC!

2005-11-24T10:05:00.000-08:00

YES fruitcake is back in session...11th dec is the date.. toa payoh south CC is the place......come and see us rock u with out supposedly "old skool type of punkrock whatever" haha be there or be square!! do catch us and more great bands

"Im going down, down in an earlier round sugar were going down swinging ill be your number one with a bullet a loaded god complex cock it and pull it!!!"

hiatus

2005-10-06T08:14:00.000-07:00

FRUitcake Recorded "doesnt even matter". Thinking of redoing the vocals...but the sound is great though....i am really busy with my job lately.. trying very hard to impress so that they will offer me a permanent position...other then that life has been great....and...i think it will be a while till u hear news about the band...although we have an exciting show coming up MAY 2006...We will be collaborating with a rap group to do a MASH UP show..look out for that..more info coming soon...have a nice day!

VISIT www.myspace.com/fruitcaketheband to hear the new song..

"and i, i wont lie, i wont sin!!"

werking life

2005-09-01T05:48:00.000-07:00

oh well... i have been busy to really put up something.. BEEN WORKING U KNOW. Its a job as a pharmacy assistant at NUH.. yah i cant find any other job.. But the job is great though.... Tiring and fast paced but the working environment and my colleagues have been great so far. So far so good. The people there are really happy to help the newbie...even when they are busy. They take the time and effort to sincerely help me.. No "bad boss" character so far. Its a 5.5 day week though.. but Its ok.. werking when u have great people around. Fruitcake is in the middle of recording "Doesnt even matter" for the "Fyi compilation".

High Society

2005-08-11T21:42:00.000-07:00

Me ANd Nani are going to celebrate our 3rd year together on the 14th of August..I wanted to surprise her with something big since she often says i am not romantic..BUT! i cant do it on the 14th because my friend cant get the place for me... so i did it on 11th.. an advanced celebration...I managed to get the seaview room at the Rasa sentosa. It was unbelievably beautiful ok! Surprised her with a little picnic on the balcony..With Rose petals scattered all around! And the smell of aroma therapy thingy in the air. hehe OK i better stop b4 u puke We really enjoyed the quite peaceful dinner overlooking the sentosa beach. I am waiting for her to TOP THAT! It was really really nice.. I felt like a rich man having my holidays on some island paradise....Nani had to go back so i invited Yunos over to accompany till the next day thats when i check out.. (It will be wasted if i checked out dat night). We ended up sitting on the balcony again..talking bout NYP.. The life the people the funny events. Had fun reminiscing the good times we had. We are never going to experience such fun again. In the end it really was a little vacation for me before i enter the working world.. i am going to finish my army ok! Dat phase in my life is gone. i am going to the working adult phase. That is if i get a job..But the NUH post is promising since i am being shortlisted..Mayb i am destined to be in the medical line....well i dun mind it considering shorter working hours and higher paying then most engineering positions. Happy annivesary Nani.. I love you!

JOB?

2005-08-03T18:14:00.000-07:00

Its official job hunting sucks... i have been to 5 interviews and i hate them.. I hate having to sit there. trying to impress the people and often i have to fake a smile.. And i have to sell myself by saying "i am a hardworking person, i can work well with others bla bla bla" I hate that. Y cant they just let me fill the application forms look at my certs and say " ok you will start next week" HAHA ok imppossible.. But there were some promising interviews...I really want a job waiting for me i dont want to do nothing when i finally finish my army. I unlike some people do not receive allowance anymore... not even like a little money ok! My parents let me go ( Mampos lah kau hidup sendiri)! So i really need the job. Im so desperate i even interviewd for a job at NUH as a pharmacy assistant.. it pays well though. And the interview went really well... BUTT....still no reply...irritating shit. so i hope one of these days my phone will ring and a voice on the other line will say.."when can u start" haha yah. so hope and pray for me. for fruitcake...recording postponed to end of august due to 2 of us being civile servants involving in the national day.

songs are nicer in soundtracks

2005-07-23T18:52:00.000-07:00

Songs are i guess better in soundtracks when u hear the songs while u are watching the movie or tv show. I said so because this morning i woke up at 9 hoping to watch 7th heaven but instead there is this new show called "The Mountain". It is about a family running a ski resort.. i instantly liked the show according to the theme song the producer chose "Miss you" by blink 182 which is of course one of my favourite bands. I am a converted fan of the show den .. and to top things up at the end of the episode when it is like a touching moment they played "wake me up when september ends" The song never sounded that good before. Even after u listen to the song like a thousand times, it feels different when they are on soundtracks. haha All this at 10 in the morning.
Im proud to say that "punkrock" bands are there.....Keep it nice keep it simple.

REST IN PEACE

then and now

2005-07-21T09:39:00.000-07:00

Ok i admit it.. i am hooked on blogging. I never thought i will. Maybe i have some views to share with you. For this post, i would like to talk about the locals shows or gigs(the term we usually use). Gigs have been around for many years. And in the past years, i have been to countless gigs and even get to performed in some of them. I have to say gigs then is abit different from now.

Then: (1997-2002)
venues - Youthpark, We use to have gigs at youthpark so often it seems that there is always a gig there almost every week. An outdoor stage, free admission, place will often be packed with lots of people, sitting by the side in front of the stage,....
Polytechnics, There were lots of gigs held at polytechnics and they were mainly in the campus halls, usually includes an entry free. e/g : "The octagon" Ngee Ann Poly, The old Nanyang Polytechnic Campuses
Core Club (Bugis, World Trade Centre) - Always taught of it as the CBGB's Of Singapore. Very Underground-ish. Entry free included with drink bar. Never Short of people on every "gig". (My personal favourite venue)
Substation( the garden), Outdoor with entry free. Actually a rundown courtyard but good place to hold a "gig". The place will often explode on every gig. I will never forget the gig when PlainSunset played after their 2nd album release "i got to find a way to stop u falling...." RIP
Other MISC venues , Far East Square, Community Centres, Area22

Now - Present day
There are very few gigs at youthpark, no more Core Club, Very little at Polytechnics, The Substation Guiness Theatre, Pradigm, Community Centres.And the most shocking but often sad. Gigs at jamming studios.??!!
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Then:
crowd - There will be moshing(the circular one !!), body surfing, crowd sing along, finger pointing in the air. Most of the time full of outbursts of emotions or people getting high on the music. Basically people know how to have fun without a care in the world even though they havent heard of the band before..lots of love and support..People come with sidezips, cargo pants, anykind of shirt.Most of them dont want the "gig" to end and hang out there even after the organisers are packing up.

Now: Very hard to get people to come to the gigs. Most of the people that make out the crowd are the other band members. The band's friends and family. Some people with nothing to do on a weekend and decided to drop by. The people will come and see their friend's band and leave together with the band after their performance. Dont know and dont care bout any other bands.AND IF there is a mosh pit, it will be full of mindless pushing, kicking, punching, Body BANGING. But sometimes there will only be about 2 rows of people standing infront.... People come with fancy Atticus, Famous stars and straps Tshirts, Waxed hair, Studded belts, trucker caps. Sit down looking cool, paying attention to how they look instead of the band. Dont want to break a sweat. Look at Gals or boys.

These are just my comments and views u can choose to like or hate them..

Of outdated photos and baybeats

2005-07-17T18:37:00.000-07:00

hey. this is a post to show u the outdated photos from the show on 3rd of july. And at the same time i want to share a very disturbing event and if u havent guessed it, it involves the singapore music scene. I went to the recent baybeats wanting to experience one of the biggest musical event this island have to offer. Sure there are great bands but people are not allowed to enjoy themselves. The setting is nice. big stage nice set! GREAT EVENT! but but but.... I know it is very important for the organisers to maintain peace and safety in singapore. But people not allowed to bodysurf in a rock show is like having nasi lemak without sambal..And they expect the crowd to jez stand there? Y dont they jez provide seating. that will solve the problem. Maybe it is because of our country conservative society or nature but they should be sane enough to see a troublemaker or not.. Can a smiling, happy body surfer possibly want to start a fight? It is good that the security is there to weed out the real troublemaker. but most of the time they are too bored that they pulled out a harmless kid having fun... this is really sad...its quite dead the baybeats...ok here are the photos. AND i forgot. i was not alowed in the arena because i was carrying CUPCORN....!!!!! yah i know i might throw it on stage..but den its only corn.

we were made to say "cheeeeze"

"why you always keep things away from me, why you never close your eyes when we kissed, why you never let me send you right to your door, why you?"

Back to the drawing board

2005-07-05T09:35:00.000-07:00

The shows are done. There are no upcoming shows yet. 3rd of july was a day of mixed feelings. First of all it was quite demoralising for us to play very early in the event where only the few early birds were present and most of our loving friends and partners were not there yet to see us. On the other hand, it was probably the first time Fruitcake played on a very professional and expensive set. And the sound was the best ever, special thanx to the soundman on stage which did a great job in providing us with the best equipments and advise. And we did had fun nevertheless with our friends after the show. Most of the fun were created by ourselves to entertain the people around us. haha...Sorry to those that missed the set but ur presence was much appreciated. The band will be working to record 2 tracks as to be submitted to a compilation (if its not too late). But it will work as our Demo too...

"Playing all those songs, about the things in life
Things that make me happy and the things that make me sad
If its right or wrong IT DOESNT EVEN MATTER"

Quoted by Sam "You dont have to be a rockstar to feel like one."

show on 3rd july

2005-06-27T18:25:00.000-07:00

hey this is just an announcement to inform you people that fruitcake will be playing on the 3rd of july at kembangan for the youthday celebration show. It will be a big outdoor celebration featuring great local acts, from rock bands to rap crews and even agile dancers to entertain you. fruitcake will be playing in the evening around 5-7. come down and have fun with us!

wireless session

2005-06-20T09:20:00.000-07:00

yup its done was fun and it rocked! fruitcake performed an energetic set despite the lame turnout. As some people decided to head home early and didnt bothered to stay...my thanx and love to all those who stayed..ur presence was really appreciated...in the end its not about how many people were there. but its all about us having fun...i had some problems with my tuning as it is the first time i am performing with dat guitar...eventually got it right. and i think i sang a bit off key becuz i cant really hear the monitors? or was i jez a plain lousy singer? u decide..the other band were great too.. "misissued" rocked with their fast paced pogressive punk rock even without their original guitarist.. "rancour" was perfect...what can i say.. and the rest of the band i really didnt took notice...i shouldnt becoz they left after their sets... what can i say.. thanx to the bands who stayed...thanx to Nani my dearest for being in my life and also thanx to Din for coming and taking those beautiful shots... 2++ of em...here r a few... u can see the rest on the link...

us before the set

pre show jitters

SMOKE MACHINE!!...

The Drummerrrr

The Bass Man

The Jumping Guitarist

The heavy guitarist

photos courtesy of anarchodin

hello the angel from my nightmare

2005-06-16T09:29:00.000-07:00

Hi this is a backdated entry. been waiting for the photo from my friend who helped me in making it look nice.. well i hope it is nice. anyway half of fruitcake played on the birthday party. it was an acoustic set and it went quite well. since it was the first time that we ever played an acoustic set, it sounded and felt abit weird but i guess its was ok. thanx to the enthusiastic crowd. we will be playing normally on the 19th.. which is nearing, had our last practice jez now and i think we sounded good. yep as you all know, we will be the last band and i hope it is a good thing...i will be hoping that people will bother to wait for us..yep..

enough bout the band. i would like to talk about my diminishing time in AYMC. i got my understudy to sign the handing taking over . hahaha it really felt good.. one more signature and that department will no longer have my name on it. im jez spending the remaining days there floating around trying to make myself wanted. i feel like i am somewhat a surplus, haha the medical centre can function very well even if im not there.. there isnt a need for me to be there. so i will jez be kind to go around and help around. it sure feels good..

my birthday was yesterday btw, my beloved galfren surprised me with an electric guitar. it was 2nd hand though but it is the one guitar that i wanted so much.. i love my gal.. she is the best! and i hope i can repay her when i get a real job with a real pay..i cant afford her a proper gift with my pathetic allowance. hold on dear..good times will come soon.. and i would like to end this post with the ever popular phrase among young singaporean guys.. at one point in their life they will have the luxury and a sense of satisfaction when they say these simple words... ORD
OH!!!

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"you're standing there youre going to far, im contemplating suicide, i need someone to pick me up when i fall down"

Acoustic session

2005-06-02T07:34:00.000-07:00

My band fruitcake is going to have an acoustic gig on 4th june at mox cafe and bar the attic.. It is for 2 fren's private birthday party. they are twins actually...only half of us will be on stage since it is an acoustic set.. and it is the first time we are trying to play our original sounds unplugged. i hope it will sound good. anyway i would like to share the first verse of the first song we are going to play.

when i wake up one day,
what the hell i said,
i'll be doing this a hundred times still im not paid,
didnt care if it was good. didnt care if it was bad,
took me quite a while to know that i was never good at that.

Hope its going to be a good show....a full blown set will be played on the 19th of june at the substation...we will be the last band...we could be the headliners or we could be the band playing sumthing while the people are getting ready to leave. haha

you can go to http://www.bgwo.cre8juvenile.com/ just to browse...

what about

2005-06-01T20:20:00.000-07:00

hi.. this is officialy my first blog. hehe yeah.. seen and read lots of it and now i guess im ready to do IT. but my html skills sux though. have to teach myself a few things..as the title or the add suggests, i am into the south california music sounds. Mostly the pop punk bands. yess.. i listen to pop punk and i am proud of it.. i jez like it ok... i dun care if they are a bunch of sell out kids.. making lots of money. i like em and i hope i can live the life they live.. haha..yeah.. i mean what is the main purpose of someone starting or playing in a band? u make music.. record them and then u Sell them...Sell yes...to make money.. yah i know all u hardcore punks might disagree...u might say its all about the message and politics and stuffs. if u wanna spread all those information, y start a band? a zine or newsletter will be more practically aint it?

transplants

1990-09-22T08:46:00.000-07:00

hey people. just want to drop a few notes Fruitcake is done with the recording of "doesnt even matter". Trying to put it up on myspace.. but for some goddamn reasons myspace is having some problems. As for me, my life is occupied with working and most of the days, i am too tired after work to do anything. The weekends usually serve as the breathing space before i get back to work...Im not actually complaining bout the job. i like it eventhough its tiring sometimes.. guess i have to get use to it....I would also like to touch abit on a new music interest. It comes in a form of a band called "Transplants". it comprises of Tim armstrong from Rancid , Travis Barker from blink182 and this guy called skinheadrob. Basically they claim that its a Drum And Bass punkrock thingy. Takes time for me to accept it. but once i did, im hooked....yah.. and they have the whole "west coast thug" theme going on. go check it out. although im sure not all of u will like the music..AND I FINALLY GOT A NEW BIKE...i got my honda 125 wave.. and im happy about it.. becoz its so "relax" no need to care and spend too much.. And i want to decorate it with this LOGO!!!